spending the day independently at home is very nice, i just came back from a stroll downstairs, taking an effortless walk braced by the chilly yet gentle wind & taking breaths of fresh & clean air, wow, i thank God for that. many times, i yearn for this quiet time i spend alone.

For the 1st time, i cried watching a tv programme. Partly coz no one's at home, but mostly because i was moved and captivated by the patients and participants of Ren Ci Charity Show. Seeing the lives of so many been wretched, and the selfless care given by their caretakers, and the Hospital; seeing the (more than)disappointment on the face of Venerable when he couldnt complete his 2nd task, and seeing through the worthy performances put up by artistes, not for self glorification- their common purpose to raise funds. it was certainly heart wrenching to see the bad response of donations despite incessant repeated shout-outs by everyone in the tv to the public to put the ugly past and feelings of betrayal (brought about by NKF) behind.

i'm thoroughly vexed, at the thinking of some Christians, who wont donate because its opened by a Buddhist organisation. is it because Christians are using that as an excuse? or just inward stingy-ness. 'sell whatever thou hast, and giveth to the poor'

again, count your blessings , there are many out there who are less fortunate than me. i need to learn to be generous..

alvin