tiring enjoyments

hello hello!

its down to the final hours. I'll be leaving home for :( long-long ): i feel like i'm enlisting into NS all over again. Its this sense of impending gloom & doom and everything extensively negative which blankets over. But i'm very sure this time it'll will be the last time i'll ever feel this way again in my NS life.

Please pray that i may not think too much about the 'sufferings', but rather being able to experience the grace of God through the 'sufferings'.

this week has flown by. I felt for certain like i'd skipped some days or something. Ok whatever, i can't escape reality. But thank God for this week, even though i was on the verge of falling really ill at the end of last night, and at the end of all my different recreations throughout the week. I was enjoying myself at an unprecedented level this week. I've never been out to town so many times in a week before. (well, i realise that i didn't go to the main Orchard Road town-ish area but i've been to Plaza Singapura/ the Cathay place 3 times this week!)

And i think its one of the rare times my planned schedule has panned out almost the way i've planned it to be. The only glitch there was when i'd wanted to meet a couple of Christian students but it fell through.

So i was dating different groups of people and different individuals everyday. Been to 2 buffets - Carnivore & Vienna (at Novena). Watched 4 different movies on as many days, each film increasing in complexity. its quite tiring, and the damage to my health is done.

My final day here is of course dedicated to staying at home. Because partly i've got no more energy to go out; partly i want to prevent a manifestation of full-blown illness; mainly i want to spend time with my family, in the comfort of my own familiar home.

vin