wow.
i badly wanted a 2.4km run trial before the real thing tomorrow, and i'm freaky worried-sick coz i havent ran 6 consecutive rounds of e track in soo long, i dun wanna face the real thing tomorrow not knowing where i stand, or what is the feeling like, so i ran today after being undecided for so long.

Guess what, i bettered my Personal Best timing today by a minute! goodness, stunning it is, my previous best was 10:20+ cant remember. i notched a 9:15 today. unbelievable really, i had felt i ran so slow i thought i would do a 11+. It was anything but a breeze. thank God for His assurance again.

I doubt i can do that well tomorrow, considering there'll be 188 pple running concurrently on 1 track. so i'm expecting a minute or half slower. This year is the only year i'm feeling so stressed about NAPFA, every other previous year i just treated it as a PE lesson. there are so many reasons i can think of which constitutes to this stress- my expectations(want to finish off my last NAPFA of my life on a high note), NS next year(i heard that NAPFA is crucial and matters)..
Argh, today's results did little to relieve my worry. WHY DO I ALWAYS WORRY?!!?! worry worry worry. am i testing God's patience by not putting my trust in Him? Obedience is 1 thing, Trust is the other. Oh God. help me to trust You, for everything is according to ur plans.

Today after school went St.E at CCK MRT with my classmate/co-ministry worker. Students who trudge along that interchange/MRT station are very renowned for the form of avoidance/rejection to our pleas to them to STOP. I call it the 'Red Sea' splitting pattern. e.g You approach a couple of guys, they will repel temporarily like i'm an odd magnet, then join up after passing me. Its a good tactic, coz they know you dun have 2 heads.
Then i was joking with my St.E partner, naming their splitting patterns like that of NMR Spect. haha. so funny, 'aye, we go split them into 'Doublets' hahahaha!

stop worrying
vin