self awareness from other sources

Classmates gathered at the round table today to talk some rubbish.
They said i'm fatter than last year, even going into the details, like commenting that my face is more swollen, even saying which area. ee-ur. Is the difference really that striking?! No more chiseled face, so.. whatever.

You've never been aware that you're thin until you get fatter.
You've never realised you like school so much until you leave that place.
You'll never miss training until you begin to lose your hate for it, 'coz you know it has its benefits.
You've never become aware of yourself until someone starts pointing out things to you which triggers self-awareness.

It all started from last year

but. i dun mind :P at least not for now

tomorrow its teaching of 'I hate to tell you this... but' , this is a very challenging series of bible studies, hopefully we'll take this opportunity to reflect on our faith. I was shaken by it in Sec 3 when Hsiao Ling taught me, when i realised that my faith, and what drives me in my faith is incorrect.

For the past 2 days i've seen extraordinary(or maybe not) behaviour of youths. I've covered primary, secondary. AND today, yes just today i was furious at how brazen & sorry Junior College students (JJC) can be. I've unknowingly dipped my hands into a glob of mucus that some student left behind on the table. Just like the Ah Peks sharing the same flat as me who urinate & spit everywhere. This student left his mucus on the table, its sickening. AND my classmate showed me a photo he captured with his handphone which is too crude & inhumane to mention it here. Is it the culture in school? Because i totally detest it. i don't understand them at all, my way! And that's when the Smart car and I had an unbelievably good jolly time!