i've just came into the transit area, standing at an internet booth, leveraging on the free internet usage for passengers.

it was so surreal, when i had to separate from my parents at the customs checkpoint. i still feel like i've left unfinished business behind, taking excess baggage with me, leaving irresponsibly. hmm... i've tried my best to complete my goals before i can leave in peace, some did work out, some didn't, but God is in control.

Thats it, i'm alone now, independent for the 3 weeks thats ahead, its a daunting, scary, frightening thought that is leaving me so nervous. But thanks you Geok Lan for your statement of reassurance. I really hope my absence will not hinder the execution or planning of the special song item for Hsiao Ling's wedding. i really wish some of you guys will be here to accompany me, but my timidity and there's still this area of my life that remains close to other people have all drifted into the big picture, rendering me as being 'sheepish' - was the word Hsiao Ling used. So there, i do pray for a safe journey, and even though i'll be alone, i'll not be afraid but experience God's presence within me.

I've had a great night with my dearest friend Hsiao Ling, thank God for her, her encouragements, advice.

my nerve imaking me wonder, 'why am i doing this?, what have i done? this is real, boy!'
My desires come out at the other end.

God is my comfort, my strength, my refuge. thank You Lord.
Vin