SOC test:
what turned out to be a failure magically solidified into a pass, reasons unknown.
i thank God for the lessons reaped out of the 10mins of test, when all of what He wants to teach me is unfurled in that illusionary 10 mins. what a good and nice glory to have, that of self belief, achievement and fame, but dear Lord looked at my distasteful heart and did something to tame that inner rebellious smoldering spirit, He wielded a stupendous hand so loving albeit eliciting fear at immediate glance, and a paltry me couldn't even the very least have any say when He shifted me back onto the right track, just like how normal and easy it is for a girl will make a toppled figure stand again in her dollhouse. there, the figure has regained its correct position and pleasing to her eyes.

amidst the hundred of outcries of sympathies, of bewilderment, of disbelief that has left one and all utterly confounded, God allowed me to view things from His viewpoint, so i thanks. An invaluable lesson of humility and perseverance.

being 1 of the guys in the 1st detail (we were ranked in merit of time, taken from previous trial runs), the only guy from my platoon, and rubbing shoulders with the fastest in the company, i felt confident that i'll blitz the test without meeting with any outstanding obstacles. However an obstacle i just couldn't clear that time, exasperation with desperation, horror with shocking disbelief, i was close to collapsing in overwrought despair and anguish. My highly self-acclaimed strong will of mine was mercilessly crushed in convincing fashion. How ruthless it is to pry apart a rock with such ease and unwilling to let it go when its already in smaller forms of granules but to decimate it further until its reduced to a thin layer of smooth soft dusty substance on the ground. My heart that was screaming in unacceptance, ringing through my bladder which was ready to send an absolutely flawed signal for my eyes to start watering.

Vin