2 weeks of trials.

Falling ill on Day 1, which i have not recovered from ever since. Prior to that, i've taken much pride in my clean record of not having to see the Medical officer to excuse myself from anything, as God has kept my healthy. Now i've been to the Medical centre twice in as many weeks, sat out of numerous trainings. And showing little signs of recovery.

Both weekends halved. 1 is punishment which i don't really deserve, the other is punishment which i deserve. for the latter, i was hurled out of bed at 3am on Thursday to be informed that i have not signed the armskote record book after i'd returned my rifle. Resulting in me paying the heavy penalty of serving 24 hour guard duty from yesterday to this morning. In retrospect, i couldn't: spend a night at home for the week; going to church for the week and meeting my beloved Christian buddies; witness my student's baptism; just to state a few. Heartbreaking, Heartbroken. But God comforts the downcast, He has made me glad. At the end i was able to still praise and thank Him.

The company i'm posted to for the 12 weeks of this course is well-known for negative reasons. The morale of trainees have sunk to lower levels with each passing day. Inefficiency, disrespect for us, poor management and leadership. Trainees are left with a hollow sense of purpose, and wondering how can such an incompetent company be training future leaders when they're such horrible examples themselves. Much of our conversation are of whining about how well planned things were in my previous company, how different were the sergeants and commanders, how much foresight & direction the OC has, which made for a well completed course without gripes.

my Saturdays for the following 3 weeks are occupied for training. So i won't be around for Saturday service.

Please pray for me, its natural tendency to moan and grumble, but God looks at a complaining heart with disdain.

thank God for the mission team who has just returned! :) May this fruitful experience serve to help them see the importance of Christians to be involved in doing good to the society, and that people need the Lord. I guess individual experiences will add to individual strengthening of the faith.

Exams are here again, pray for the students who are taking their exams.

taking the long way around
Vin