break!

mark 1:35
very early in the morning, when it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went to a solitary place, where He prayed.

when i want to spend some personal quiet time by myself, talking to Father in heaven, i'll glide (or sneak) across to the other side of the building, which area belongs to another company. So i'll look out for times when they're not around. its much more difficult to do so now coz of the new intake, but i used to head over there almost every night for the initial 3 weeks when the company wasn't open then yet.
the point is, i've found a solitary place, to be at physical situational peace, to reflect and pray. just that mine is when the day has come to a close. i've enjoyed intimate times with the Lord :)

yes, i've survived field camp. and an arduous intensive 2 weeks especially. i thank God really for His guidance. Save for a couple of numb toes, an abstract assortment of different cuts and abrasions, some rashes, i'm pretty much still standing! haa.. thank God really, it was tough, marching with heavy load through the nights, digging 2 big holes in the field which was no light matter- i couldn't stand straight after that coz my lower back was overused, and being drenched because of the heavy downpour, but at the end of it all, it was God who gave me strength to persevere on.
One thing that is really getting me annoyed is the way the commanders are treating us and their management style. We were chided for almost everything we do, or don't do, whether we take intiatives or not. Right from the start, they've been constantly berating, shouting at us at every opportunity they can pounce on. its almost like they're abusing their power or venting their inner frustations and anger(for no reason) on us poor people. Its quite shocking, i'm surprised none of us trainees have come down with depression. Seriously i've never heard so much scoldings and shoutings at such a high frequency of occurrence before. i'm praying to respond in a manner pleasing to God. How to love them?
1 Corinthians 13:4 - love is patient, love is kind......

thank God for this long weekend! :) pray for good rest to recuperate for the final hurdle for this course, in Taiwan, when i'll brave the cold again. i'm fearing i may not be able to handle the weather.

It wasn't too long ago when i found myself in a suicidal position in a foreign place. Fighting the harsh winter conditions as an absolute newbie ,who've somehow impetuously airlifted himself out of the sunny island, who've foolishly thought that winter can only be a bearable few degrees lower than the air-con at church, who've unintelligently, due to my obstinance to heed warnings, put my body to the test with full knowledge that i have a low tolerance for cold & threshold of discomfort which it brings, and ended up being severly punished for it. well, for all consolation, i've stepped out of being an amateur at the very least. So much for saving on airfares to land up in a place i was close to being frosty in a lightweight sweater and jeans, now i come to think back, or i could have just gone to a nicer place like Vienna or Zurich, where i'm certain they have more English speaking guys there, a more inviting sight from arrival, but then again, its about the weather ultimately. judging from this experience i may have suffered similar fate still.

God is amazing, He is. He's prepared me for army in a really really wonderful way, now as i see it. Throwing a drenched me in the winter cold - which i will not ever want to experience again, which is strikingly similar to my experiences outfield when it rains.

good night, its Eid Al Fitr.
Vin