hangover

the guard duties within a span of 3 days have made my head spin literally. inadequate rest and lethargy is my state of mind and body now. Remember the only night that i can spend at home? it didn't help much, as i suffered a pretty high fever through the night, which also saw the worst of nightmares i've had ever since the day i received my posting. Since that day, i've found it harder to fall asleep, frequent nightmares are haunting and damaging to the mind, i doubt my sleep actually work to yield any rest or recovery to my body, i will wake up with aches in my joints, head, inside the head, you know, just like an everywhere. i looked at myself in the mirror at 4am today. my eyes sparkled lifelessly and its supported by really heavy dull eyebags. i could have passed off as a zombie.

peace is all i need. situational peace. my mind can't stop thinking, thinking, thinking. And my head feels like a *bowling ball. any plans made to go for today's Bible Trail session, i've called it off for the sake of my health.

pray that i may rest well. 24h Saturday duty up next.

Vin

*term used by GeokLan