turned into church today and it suddenly dawned on me that the rest are away at field camp. haha... so i made a u-turn back home.

thank God for getting me a week into the course already. I was so afraid, i prayed with christian mates who's just as scared as i am. the course is really demanding from all sides, but i've come to realise that its intentional that they crush our motivation and will, with the aim that we can still remain on course, keeping our head and producing optimism through motivating ourselves even at our lowest. they're out there to step all over us and the treatment i've received so far is by far worse than that of a recruit undergoing BMT. Can you imagine? its like our hard earned ranks has been stripped until the end of this course. well, anyway in addition there are like 3 officers, and a few more coursemates with a heavier rank than us who's also going through similar treatment as us.

on wednesday i fell ill. the same illness that plagued me for 5 weeks, which started on the 1st day, on my previous course. came down with fever again last night -38.7deg. pray that i may recover my full health back soon. still down with thick mucus and my voice is almost gone.

i'm clinging on ever so closely to God.

Vin