musings

in these few days, my ex-classmates from my secondary school have created a facebook group for the class. haaha, I've found myself laughing at the screen each time i recall something silly, either triggered by what they post on the wall, or my own recollections.

I find that my sec 1-2 years are just plain brash silliness, stopping just short of fooling around & moving towards indulging in the golden period of adolescence, while celebrating what we've uncovered along its path.

If my lower sec days were about mindlessness and carelessness, then it would very well be a breeding ground for upper sec, when we would grow wings and fly, but remain pesky, brazen and fearless. Those days were marked by plain merry go jolly around, untamed brats who fed on teachers' esteemed skins.

haaha I find myself missing my secondary school days, and on top of that, my friends. I miss wearing all white and all that nonsense. I'd better share the gospel to those who I've not shared to...
I'm reminded again lately of the fragility of life, and how real death really is. The shock to read that somemore who I know has died in a freak accident. The overriding sadness and regret that when he was still alive, I didn't tell him about life after death. *sigh hard*

indebted to non Christians the good news of Christ.
vin

on surviving a testing day

yesterday was the 3 paper onslaught. which I've fought it, and came out of it. Thank God for His guidance, and through many prayers. Thank God for allowing me to trust in Him. Yep, even though, there were questions which I didn't know how to answer, marks that were lost, I'm thankful to be able to trust in Him, coz I know that no matter what results I get, it doesn't matter, but its the response towards it, and how this experience serve to build me up on godly character. I mean, He knows what results I'll be getting already, I just need to trust Him.

I slept for like 12 hours yesterday, coz I was just so tired. haaha, like after church on Saturday, I felt so mentally burnt that I went home, skipped dinner and slept for 12 hours, even though I had known that time was precious and I could not finish my revision for the 3 papers on Monday. yep, but I'd realised that I wouldn't be productive if I'd stayed up then, nothing would have went in.

yep, exams are not over yet, even though its probably over for many fellow students now. I've got 2 more papers, the dreadful history being the final battle. haaha..

now right, I'm thinking of taking my mind off exams a while, head down to kinokuniya or borders. yeah, I think I'll do that now.

vin

I'm just doing my last minute revision and wanna take some time to post this from my notes coz i think its a brief guide to how friendships are built up:


Role-limited interactions:
Initial encounters –stick to familiar and safe topics. Exercise care in making disclosures.

Friendly relations:
Check the other person to see if there are any common interests to develop a good friendship.
Explore the potential for a deeper relationship.

Moving towards friendship:
Involves stepping beyond social roles.
When we arrange for meetings and activities.
Could introduce a more personal topic.
People talk more freely about feelings, values, goals and attitudes.

Nascent friendship:
Increased involvement and caring.
Friends begin to work out private ways of relating and interacting.

Stabilized friendship:
Benchmark = assumption of continuity.
Assume that they would continue meeting each other.

Waning friendship:
Friends drift apart because each is pulled in a different direction by career demands/personal circumstances.
Common interests and experiences that had once fuelled the friendship begins to dissolve.

Ok, haaha gonna trust God for my 3 papers tmr. of which i am so unprepared. i have not even touched my French revision yet, and am struggling through the 2 cores. haaha. yep, am gonna sleep and rejoice tmr! :) its a brand new week and its gonna be good :)

rejoice in the Lord always
vin

I'm into the 12th hour of stationing myself here at Starbucks. The morning is almost going into afternoon now. I've just shifted my seat and i've noticed that my butt shape has made a mold out of the cushion seat I was stationary on for 99% of the 12 hours I have been here.

I'm really really really very thankful to God in guiding me through. Even though I have not slept a single bit, I have not felt a single bit of tiredness. I think its really amazing. thank God for Mag's and huEy's prayers.

Was working through the first half of the 12 hours tog with leong. Could sense his frustration in trying to complete his assignment. Its so frustrating coz of the lack of direction, lack of resources, and everything felt so blurrish so blocked. i guess we can pray that faced with these situations, we may be calm and know that we do what we are able to. I guess as long as its an effort that we have put in our best, the Lord would be pleased.

Ok, I guess I'll hang around here for some time longer, then head straight to school.

PS: i wish that i am lounging here, with no assignments to rush out. haaha, like the angmohs who stroll in for crossiants, latte and muffins.

dotz
vin

a song for those who seemed to have lost everything in wake of the nat. disasters.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UHjMogG98X4&feature=related

I am moved
vin